I’ve Got You


Your senses are assaulted. You don’t know where to turn. You panic. You tremble. You pace. You cry. You hurt yourself. You chain smoke. You drink. You drug. You rock alone on the floor. You are staring out the window at someone else’s life wishing it was yours. You don’t want to get up today. You don’t want to go to work. You don’t want to be a mom. You don’t want to be a dad. You don’t want to be a husband or a wife. You just want to be you, but you don’t know where you went or who you are. Your whole life you lived up to expectations. You tried to be who you thought everyone wanted you to be.

So where did you go? What happened? Who the fuck are you?

Shit. What a sensation.


She was making out in the backseat of a cab.

“Just trying to stay warm,” she said.

They thought she was asleep.


He said his tats started writhing on top of his arms. Then pop! Lift off. He was through.

Didn’t anyone see the urgent messages flashing?


Okay. Let’s go to the mirror. Let’s find ourselves. Let’s do that together. No. Wait. One at a time. I want you to go first…

So there you are. You see you never really left. You just have to look at yourself differently.

Now give yourself a big hug. Wrap your arms tightly around yourself and squeeze. You’re all right. I’ve got you. Now go back and look in the mirror again.

I want you to see what it looks like to love yourself.

There you are… you’ve been there all along.


Do you see that incredible person standing there? Keep your arms around yourself a little while longer and just look at that awesome person. You are so beautiful it makes me cry.

Did you really think you were alone? You’re not. I hurt too. I hurt with you.

And so does everyone else.

Can you stay with me today? Today is enough. And tomorrow we will take this with us and that will be enough.

Now lock your eyes on mine and know that you are enough.

I’ve got you.

You got me?



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*originally published July 2015


58 thoughts on “I’ve Got You

  1. This is amazing Kelly. It is intense, but tender. And the picture is fabulous. I loved this piece 🙂

  2. Wow. I think this is your best stuff ever. Holy s#!$ you are talented.

  3. May everyone get the “I’ve got you” message when they most need it. xoxo

  4. Brilliant stuff Kelly. So powerful and uplifting 🙂

  5. Such a powerful piece, Kelly. Bravo…just beautiful. ☺

  6. Beautiful Kelly! ❤
    Diana xo

  7. This was profound and meaningful, Kelly. Life is full of times where it would sure be nice to go and hide. Facing ourselves and then using our wit, skills and inner self to keep on going is a tough act to carry out each and every day. I loved the photo and your message, I got you. I feel your having my back,too. Nice to know . . .

  8. Thought provoking … and heck, do we ever figure out ourselves?

  9. Pretty amazing message Kelly. I hear you.

  10. This just got me thinking it was so good

  11. God this touched a very raw nerve. Its an amazing piece and yet really intense too. Right now at 60 I dont really know who I am – coming out of a 34 yr old marriage. In my work in mental health, trainer, I usually have others’ backs, its been my life and passion. But I aint got me anymore never mind anyone else 😦
    Feel I’m running on empty. Thank u for this – and I do have good professional help as well as friends, it just seems never ending, and like I’m screaming but altho folk listen they dont hear

    • Hi Judy. I’m very sorry to hear of your troubles, but relieved to hear you have resources to help you though. I wrote this to say everyone has tough times; there are never any guarantees in this life, and if you try to remember you are not alone, and that everyone is going through stuff no matter who they are, it brings a measure of comfort. At least it does for me. I know it’s especially hard when you are the one everyone looks up to, but you are human as well. Be gentle with yourself and rely on people who care about you.
      I wish you all the best. xo

      • Thank you! I’ve been told a few times recently to be compassionate with myself, gonna have to unlearn beating myself up first 😉 I believe you’ve ‘got me’ and for that I’m grateful. I ‘get you’ definitely, identify with your beautiful words. But am just so depleted at the mo I dont think I could say ‘I’ve got you’ – just yet, it wouldn’t be honest. But soon I hope, and that my comments will become more upbeat. I am fighting this so hard thro’ my self help strategies and I sense you know what a battle that can be. I believe it will be a joy to follow your writings xx

      • Hi Judy. I can feel your pain. But I can also tell you are strong and you will overcome this. Hopefully you will be able to turn it all around one day and use your experience to help others. I’ll bet you’re the kind of person who will be able to do that. Thank you for your kindness and support. All the very best to you. xoxo

  12. Powerful, Kelly! I remember times in my life when this would have meant so much.

  13. That gave me goose bumps, Kelly! Very powerful and how great you led to the insight!

  14. You got me in your opening words. From there I was speechless.

  15. Lovely words of encouragement as always, Kelly. Some days we just need a hug. Introverts too. 😉

  16. I missed this the first time around. So glad I caught it this time. Very strong!

  17. Just an FYI: When you make out in the back seat of a cab, you have to be careful because your teeth tend to bang together when you hit a bump. And there are LOTS of bumps. For real.

  18. It does seem that when the world comes crashing down there is only yourself. Thanks for the powerful words and affirmation.

  19. Nicely done Kelly! Had me sitting on the edge of my seat.

  20. Kelly… there’s so much I could say but I won’t … except to say that right now… loving myself is so hard. Thanks for reminding me that I’m not alone…. Diane

  21. Brilliant! I’m glad I found this post.

  22. My Dear Kelly, I do not know if You had meant Jesus, when You spoke of the One who has ‘got’ us. For me, it is He. I was remembering that I have been is such situations Many times. And eventually understood that He had been there. …Well written. Kudos and Regards. 🙂

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